I fasted last night, actually for about 15 hours, for my labs only to find out I didn't need to fast. But on the other hand I slept pretty good so maybe no food after a certain hour is a good idea for sleep. The tech was brilliant and, while she struggled to find a vein, didn't hurt me a bit. I asked her to take extra blood just in case because I didn't want to come back if they needed to retest the calcium. She did.
I had determined to ignore firstborn on fb for now but it became difficult when he started ranting on a couple of my links about how awful I was and how I was persecuting Christians and such. So I made the decision to end the relationship. I know that sounds cold-blooded but how much shit do you have to take from someone, even your own son, before you just walk away from it. If he had been unrelated to me, I would have ended the relationship years ago. I won't say never because I don't predict the future very well but right now I am ending our connection. From this moment on I can say what I want without fear of his retaliation or his "lecturing" me as if I were an idiot or a child. Maybe I contributed to this by not speaking up but I'm just not good with confrontation and especially verbal abuse, which is what he's done to me over the years. So it's done. Should he call, I won't talk to him. Should he email me, I won't respond. I am done being treated this way.
I talked to my mother yesterday and the dress I would like to knit my great-niece would be too small by the time I finished it. She's already in that size. That's a shame because it's such a cute dress. I'll keep an eye out. I have lots of other nieces and a nephew that I could knit for. And my mother loves my stuff.
In the meantime, I'm plugging along on Zach's sweater front. I'm just a few rows away from starting the shoulders and then the V-neck. When I finish I have to unravel the back so it will be the same length but that's not a huge problem. It helps that each stripe is 2 inches exactly. Measuring is a breeze this way.
I also worked on the blue and white baby blanket which has become boring beyond words. But it's also mindless knitting I can do when I need to put my attention elsewhere. Like late at night.
I have my "studio" set up and ready to go but probably won't get to it today as it's almost time to start supper. I need to start getting up sooner but I really do enjoy getting 7-8 hours of sleep, which isn't something I have done much of the past 24 years. If I could figure out a way to get up early AND get that sleep I would go for it.
Tomorrow we're going to see Harry Potter, finally. We always wait until the crowds thin out because I am just nervous as can be in crowds. And we always go to the matinee because it's half-price. We intended to go a week or so ago and things got in the way so we will definitely go tomorrow. Barring any other kind of hurdle.
Time to cook so I'm off to fix supper and then cozy up on the couch and knit. The weather has been lovely lately with temps in the low 70s, not at all usual for August, but I'm not complaining.
TTFN
I had determined to ignore firstborn on fb for now but it became difficult when he started ranting on a couple of my links about how awful I was and how I was persecuting Christians and such. So I made the decision to end the relationship. I know that sounds cold-blooded but how much shit do you have to take from someone, even your own son, before you just walk away from it. If he had been unrelated to me, I would have ended the relationship years ago. I won't say never because I don't predict the future very well but right now I am ending our connection. From this moment on I can say what I want without fear of his retaliation or his "lecturing" me as if I were an idiot or a child. Maybe I contributed to this by not speaking up but I'm just not good with confrontation and especially verbal abuse, which is what he's done to me over the years. So it's done. Should he call, I won't talk to him. Should he email me, I won't respond. I am done being treated this way.
I talked to my mother yesterday and the dress I would like to knit my great-niece would be too small by the time I finished it. She's already in that size. That's a shame because it's such a cute dress. I'll keep an eye out. I have lots of other nieces and a nephew that I could knit for. And my mother loves my stuff.
In the meantime, I'm plugging along on Zach's sweater front. I'm just a few rows away from starting the shoulders and then the V-neck. When I finish I have to unravel the back so it will be the same length but that's not a huge problem. It helps that each stripe is 2 inches exactly. Measuring is a breeze this way.
I also worked on the blue and white baby blanket which has become boring beyond words. But it's also mindless knitting I can do when I need to put my attention elsewhere. Like late at night.
I have my "studio" set up and ready to go but probably won't get to it today as it's almost time to start supper. I need to start getting up sooner but I really do enjoy getting 7-8 hours of sleep, which isn't something I have done much of the past 24 years. If I could figure out a way to get up early AND get that sleep I would go for it.
Tomorrow we're going to see Harry Potter, finally. We always wait until the crowds thin out because I am just nervous as can be in crowds. And we always go to the matinee because it's half-price. We intended to go a week or so ago and things got in the way so we will definitely go tomorrow. Barring any other kind of hurdle.
Time to cook so I'm off to fix supper and then cozy up on the couch and knit. The weather has been lovely lately with temps in the low 70s, not at all usual for August, but I'm not complaining.
TTFN
2 comments:
There comes a time in life when one's own mental health and emotional survival requires eliminating thorns from our lives. It's sad that those situations occur, but having the same blood does not mean we're going to like each other. Maybe time will help.
That is so true, Carol, and this isn't the first time I've distanced myself from relatives who were toxic to me, but much harder, obviously. I'm not locking that door shut because I don't know what the future holds, but I must close it for now for the sake of my mental health.
Thanks so much for understanding and commenting about it.
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