Saturday, March 20, 2010

Not a good news Saturday

Although I'm still dragging I managed to dig deep and find some energy to get the laundry done (although in the dryer and not on the clothesline), run errands and change my room back. I haven't slept well since I moved it the last time and although it works better as a room, it was for crappy sleeping and sleeping takes priority over form. I also attacked the kitchen first thing but it's a mess again because I haven't been able to keep up with it.

I'm hoping for an early night tonight. I don't want to miss church again. In fact, unless I get less than 3 hours sleep, I'm going anyway. I can drive on 3 hours sleep but not less. And I can try to limit the pain pills tonight. Maybe use a hot water bottle or something instead. Unless the pain keeps me awake; then it becomes a futile exercise.

We got about an inch of snow last night but none on the pavement or streets. And most of it is gone by now due to a lot of sunshine. Still colder than we're used to but seasonable at least. Mid 30s, which is moderate jacket weather for those of us coming out of temps in the minus numbers. Supposedly there is more snow on the way but I'm not going to panic about it. It won't affect driving tomorrow at all.

My tomato plants are looking good. The tobacco plants are still tiny and not all of them have popped up yet so I might have to do some replanting. Although I have some sections that have 3 or 4 plants growing together. I might just transplant those instead of planting new seeds. I planted some pepper plants this week as well. I would have planted them sooner but I couldn't figure out which 3 rows I had set aside for them were actually empty of seeds until something started growing.

I might start my peas soon. I have some pots outside I can bring in and take out during the day since peas are supposed to be hardy plants. I can't afford to get a lot of tomato baskets but I might just use dowels and tie them to that. Or I've got some t-fence posts I could use as well. I'm trying hard to do this inexpensively.

I got a lot of things from the library today. I haven't even looked to see what all I got but I know one dvd is House season 3 and two seasons of Jonathan Creek. Not sure what else is in there. I have tons of knitting to get done so I'm going to have an early night and do nothing but knit and watch dvds. Everyone is on their own tonight: French bread pizzas in the fridge. Maybe I'll get some good sleep tonight and have energy tomorrow to get more things done.

I heard today from my sister that our former pastor's wife died from ALS. I hadn't seen them in nearly 20 years but it still bothers me to hear of people I know dying. Her youngest was about the same age as Zach and they used to play together a lot. I'm so sorry for their loss.

When I feel too sorry for myself I need to remember that there are people out there who have it much, much worse. And remember that, not out of arrogance, but out of humility that I need to be more appreciative of what I have. And do that much more for those I can help.

TTFN

2 comments:

MadPriest said...

When I feel too sorry for myself I need to remember that there are people out there who have it much, much worse.

No. Other people's suffering and your suffering are two different things and should never be compared to each other. You should deal with both as completely separate issues.

And remember that, not out of arrogance, but out of humility that I need to be more appreciative of what I have. And do that much more for those I can help.

Yes. And the same goes for all of us. But not for the reason above and not whilst ignoring your own stuff.

Kathy said...

Thanks, Jonathan. You're right that it needs to be two separate issues. But it's the whining and the "why me" attitude that makes me feel that I don't have a right to complain. And now with even more bad news I'm feeling even more guilty about my complaining. Some members of my church have started wearing little wrist bands to remind themselves of their complaining only to discover that they're now complaining about the wrist bands.

Personally if I couldn't get it out of my system, I would explode. Still...dwelling too much isn't healthy either.

Thanks for your advice. I will certainly use it to the best of my ability.