Zach put his two week notice in Friday. We'll see if they schedule him for the last week of employment. He could have toughed it out for another month but it just wasn't worth the money. He was only working two hours a day and with the drive there it didn't net a ton of profit. I didn't encourage him to quit this early but I didn't discourage it either. Ever since they changed managers he's been getting the short stick a lot and gotten chewed out for doing things he's been told to do by another manager. They don't have a lot of communication going on there. But then, I've noticed that most fast food places are just like this one.
We used to hang out a lot at Wendy's but the management there has gotten worse, too. I was in line last week for a drink and a hamburger and it took forever to get it because the manager was on the phone with his kids talking. A couple came in behind me and waited for a while, then walked out.
Eating out just isn't fun anymore. It's just as well, since with Zach not working we won't be tempted by the discount.
I'm considering going back to counting calories in order to lose weight. I'm so tired of being tired and feeling like I have no life. I read online the other day that diabetes causes fatigue so in addition to my fibromyalgia, which causes fatigue, my pain pills, which cause fatigue and my aromasin and other meds which also cause fatigue...it's a wonder I can function at all. I need my life back!
I didn't make it to church again today. That's another thing that seems to be stealing my life: insomnia. I can't function on little sleep but even if I don't nap during the day, I can't seem to sleep at night. I've tried turning the tv off and trying to sleep but my mind won't shut off and I get upset by finances, or other such upsetting things. It doesn't help that I sleep right by the front door and when Tom comes in at midnight, he really can't help making noise. I am a light sleeper so it wakes me up and then I can't get back to sleep.
And there is no place else for me to sleep. The basement is far too damp and smelly and gets flooded when it rains too much. And there isn't an extra bed anymore since Tom tore apart the box springs to the queen bed. I really wish I had my own room. Or at least a bed I didn't have to put together and take apart every day.
I've been reading some books on Celtic Christianity lately. I'm finding that I just can't give up my Christianity. But I think I'm better for the journey I had to make to get back here. Fundamentalism really damaged me far more than I realized and I had trouble finding the good in Christianity anymore. I think Zach is still badly damaged though and I'm not sure what it will take for him to heal. I can only sit back and let him take his own journey. And be there for him if he needs me.
I discovered my dorset wool that I spun a couple of summers ago and am knitting a scarf for next winter. I did a really poor job of spinning but it was my first time. I got my Welsh top out and did some more spinning this weekend. It's a coarser roving so it needs to be used for something more utilitarian rather than clothing or something of that nature. I might make some hats from it but I'm told it doesn't felt well. Still, a wool hat is better than an acrylic one if I can wear it without all the itching I normally have. I haven't dyed any of it yet. I'm barely past the halfway point in my roving. I'm guessing I won't be done this summer if I don't get busy with it.
I don't like the purse I'm crocheting after all. I don't like the color and it's not as sturdy as I need it to be. It looks like I'll be making grocery bags after all. Those I can use for Christmas presents.
I tried to knit on the beaded scarf and ended up ripping back to where I started. Never knit lace when you're tired. Never. I did manage to knit another inch on the baby blanket though. Mostly though I'm not interested in anything. Another bout of depression, I guess. I wish I had the motivation to turn my life around.
Enough of the pity parties. I need to focus more on what I have rather than what I don't have. And I have an episode of Survivorman on tape that I haven't seen yet so I'm off to watch it and then it's How Do You Solve a Problem Like Maria and True Blood. I'm getting supper from McSnacky's tonight since it's probably the last time we'll be able to use the discount.
TTFN
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