Wasted Monday

I really miss knitting.  I look at my knitting bag and projects each day but I just haven't had the energy to work on them.  I hope to get back to it soon though.  I realized today that I don't even walk down the yarn aisle in StuffMart anymore.  It's like an illness. :)

I had hoped Tom would do the taxes yesterday but since that didn't happen, I'm under the gun to get them done and soon.  I was going to work on them today but I napped nearly 3 hours and then had to run errands.  I've got to fix supper very soon and finish up two loads of laundry.  And all I really want to do it go back to bed.  I'm that sleepy.

I took some herbal sleeping pills over the weekend and ended up sleeping until 2 p.m. one day.  The next I didn't sleep much at all because of the pain from my fibromyalgia.  Turns out sleeping pills don't trump fibromyalgia pain.  Darn!

Last night it took a while for the pain to subside but I slept although I'm still getting interrupted sleep.  Although I am dreaming again so there is that.

I'll just have to get to bed early tonight and hope for the best, tackle the taxes first thing and then go outside to work on the yard.  Couldn't work outside today anyway without an anchor.  We had 25 mph winds with gusts up to 35.  Normal for this time of year actually.  Don't hang clothes out on the line if you've grown attached to them.  You might not see them again.

I hope tomorrow is a better day.  A more productive one. 


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And I forgot to knit, too

I completely forgot to blog yesterday.  Not that I still wasn't online too much but I got busy toward the end of the day and just shut everything down and collapsed in bed.  And yet...nothing much to show for what I got done.

I was making soup for lunch when my glass saucepan cracked in two.  Fortunately nothing leaked out but the pan was toast and since that was the third pan I'd lost in the last few years, I'm running low on stuff to cook with.  So, since I got a call from the library that I had four items in, Zach and I headed to town where we picked up the books, grabbed a soda and a hamburger off the value menu because I was afraid to eat the soup (because of glass particles) and then went looking at StuffMart for a new set.

Tom and I had bought the glassware back when we first got married so most of them have made it past 25 years, which isn't a bad record.  But we had already decided that when we replaced the glass, we would go with stainless steel because I love my stainless skillet and dutch oven.  I had intended to just buy what I needed to replace but it was a pretty good deal to get the whole set (minus the 3qt pan, which is sold separately) and was about a fourth the price I thought we would have to pay out.  Plus we got stainless steel spatulas and spoons to go with it.

I grabbed a chicken from the deli in the cheap section (still good but had been under the lights too long to sell at fresh prices) for $1.50, came home and fixed chicken broth rice in the new sauce pan.  I will have to re-learn how to cook as these heat up much faster.  The rice turned out perfect...much better than the glass pans, to be honest.  But I learned the hard way that the lids need a pot-holder to take them off.  The glass ones, not so much.  Ouch!

Then I had laundry to do, the kitchen to clean up a bit (still needs so much more done at the deeper level) and by that time I was very tired and went to bed after cleaning up the supper mess. 

And then I fell asleep only to wake up about 15 minutes later.  That went on all night.  I probably should have taken one of Tom's herbal sleeping pills since they worked so well but I didn't think of it until nearly 5 a.m. and by that time had lost all hope of sleeping.  So I'm dragging my butt again.

I have gotten a few loads of laundry done and did some work in the kitchen and dining room but not enough to really call it a good day.  Honestly I could just go to bed now and not even bother with supper if it wasn't for Tom needing to eat when he comes home.

Tomorrow we have to mow the yard.  Both neighbors have mowed now (and of course the neighbor to the right still won't mow the property line so it will look a bit ridiculous when we do) so our yard looks terrible.  And I need to get some flowers planted.  And when it dries out enough, till up the garden and plant grass seed because I'm done with vegetable gardens forever.

But really all I want to do is sleep.  I should have laid out something for supper but I didn't so I have no idea what to cook for supper.

I'm sure if I could sleep at night, I could think during the day. But since I don't...I can't.

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My phone is finally silent

No robo calls from political people today although Rachel from cardholder services got an earful of language that would peel paint off the house.  Not that she heard me since it, too, is a robo call.

I did sleep some last night although I got up with Professor 3 times anyway.  His barking became more urgent toward morning so I relented and got up and he did have to go.  But those times when he was using his indoor bark, I turned over and ignored him.  He eventually jumped back into bed.

Still...it would be lovely to sleep all the way through.  I only got up 3 times, but he woke me up about 6 times.  Plus I woke up when Tom came home and it took a while to get back to sleep.

I'm not doing much of anything today aside from laundry and some clean up in the kitchen.  I really need to scrub it down and do some organizing in there but not today.  We voted this afternoon and then went to the thrift store where I found a stoneware goblet I loved for my altar and a little gadget for Tom's birthday.  We're just getting him silly stuff this year for his birthday.

Hopefully tomorrow I won't have to go anywhere and can focus on the kitchen.  I'll worry about the rest of the house later but the kitchen needs to be cleaned and better organized so I can get back to cooking from scratch.  I need counter space and access to the pantry.  We had to empty out the cabinet above the pantry because it leaks from the rain so that stuff is on the floor in front of the pantry.  Tom had put it in the pantry but as there is a lot of chemicals and stuff there, I quickly removed it from the foodstuff.  I can't get to the pantry very well now because of all the stuff in front of it.  Plus there are things that don't fit in the pantry that need to find a new home.  And the floor really needs a mopping.

I'm definitely not going to have a garden this year.  I'm going to focus on the yard and flowers and such so the neighbors don't vote us out of the neighborhood.  We're the people neighbors hate to have with our clutter and such.

But tonight I'm doing laundry and fixing supper.  Beyond that nothing more.  I will try another of those herbal sleeping pills again.  It worked pretty well and didn't make me groggy today.  But the fatigue is always there no matter how much sleep I seem to get.

And that really sucks.

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Be back tomorrow

I don't know what has gotten into Professor but he woke me up every hour last night to go out for a wee.  He didn't seem in distress and definitely had no problem wee'ing but this can't go on.  And the one hour it seemed like he was going to let me sleep, the phone rang and it was one of those robocalls from the Republicans.  An hour later, got another call.  Which woke Professor up and I had to get up with him ten minutes later.

Tonight I'm going to take one of Tom's herbal sleeping pills, lay out puppy pads all over the kitchen floor and put a pillow over my head when he barks wanting out.  He's gotten used to going out frequently during the night and this has to stop.  I haven't had a good night's sleep in about a month and I can't keep going on like this.

I'll be back after the election tomorrow when those m-f robocalls stop.  They should be illegal.

We got 8 in the space of a 40 minute period this afternoon, not counting three this morning and I just got back from the store and the light is flashing on the voice mail so there are more on that.

Sheesh!

Going to take a breather

...for a while.  I need to focus more on getting myself back together and not fight this damned fatigue and uncertainty so much.  Just let it all unfold before me.  I'll still be on facebook daily but not online so much for a while.

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More of the same

I hadn't planned on going anywhere today but we were out of some key items so I made a trip to the store.  I behaved myself and didn't get much more than I needed.  Well, not very much more. 

Another night of several interruptions to my sleep.  Professor wanted out four times and wanted food twice.  I let him out for potty purposes but didn't give him any food.  He has dry food available at all times and he had a couple of treats from the night before he hadn't eaten.  I don't want to encourage him to wake me up for food.  It's bad enough I have to get up to let him out.

And he still used his potty papers as well.

So I'm dragging and plan on going to bed very soon.  I'm not even going to wait for the sun to go down.  Probably won't knit tonight because I'm that tired.

I just got some store brand pizzas for supper.  Zach can fix Tom's; he's already had his pizza.  Hopefully tomorrow I'll be rested enough to get done all the work I need to, including the taxes.  How I hate to do those.

So...off to get ready for bed.

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I'm cold

...but that's okay. I shut the windows late yesterday before the sun went down and was able to keep much of the heat in although I might run the furnace before I go to bed because it's creeping down to about 55 right about now.  I'll be baking in a few minutes so I don't want to use the furnace just yet.

Tom found out that there was nothing wrong with the car aside from a stuck spring in the button on the gear shift so he's got the car today and Zach and I took off just to be out during the week.  We did some errands while we were out but mostly just went window shopping.  Didn't spend a dime but had a good time nonetheless.

I am still not sleeping well. I hate these insomnia cycles.  With the window shut last night, Professor didn't wake me up but I woke up at 7:30 a.m. and just couldn't get back to sleep so I got up and puttered around the house before I went up to wake Tom up since he slept through his alarm. He had to go in early today for a meeting.  Tomorrow, too.  I'm wondering if the reason I'm not sleeping is because I'm worried about him oversleeping.  This isn't the first time I've had to wake him up to get him to work on time. He never, ever had that problem before but this constant work schedule is taking its toll on him. Now I can't rest comfortably.

I did some knitting last night on the socks and the desk cover, but I got sleepy so I shut everything down and then woke right up. Couldn't get to sleep until about 4 a.m. or so.  So 3 and a half hours of sleep won't work for me.  I didn't get anything much done today as a result.

Maybe I'll sleep well tonight because of the cold. It got down to 34 last night although it stayed above 60 here in the house.  Maybe I won't turn the furnace on so I can sleep well tonight.

Tomorrow I've got to get busy on the taxes. I hate doing them.  We had an agreement for years that since I do the bills all the time that Tom would do the taxes but with his schedule he just can't concentrate on them so it's down to me to do them.  Only I'm having trouble concentrating myself.  A chronic problem. I bought a crossword puzzle book hoping that would help me exercise my brain enough.  I just started it so I can't say if it's helping but it's nice to know I can remember some things anyway.

I've got to finish supper up.  Impossible pie tonight because it's easy to fix and I'm so tired.  Tomorrow we need to get back on track with the eating plan.  I know Zach's gained back some weight and I'm to blame for it with my enabling and bad cooking.  It's not doing either of us any good not working on it so I guess I'll put what little energy I've got into that instead of trying to keep up with the house. 

But for now, I'm off to finish up supper and then to bed. I don't care if I only nap for now. I'm so sleepy I'm falling asleep at the computer.

TTFN

More like spring

Even though we reached record temps again, it was in the mid 60s with a nice gentle rain all day.  And all last night so the basement is doubling as a pool today. I'll have to squeegee it this weekend.

I got all the laundry done yesterday but didn't have any energy for much else, except I vacuumed my bedroom because I had brought up all the clothes from the basement and ended up with a floor full of some kind or dirt or something.  I would like to do the dining room today but the kitchen needs it worse.  Now that Tom has the upstairs dormer fixed the kitchen addition is leaking.  Right at the join.  As I said before, the guy built it right on top of the patio with no foundation. It's not even attached to the ground in any way.  So the patio is sinking a bit and the addition is pulling away from the house. I'd like to just demolish it but we don't have the money to fix it up with anything else and that would leave a gaping hole in the kitchen. Open invitation to thieves. Not to mention heating bills out the butt.  So we are stuck with it for now.

The stove blew a burner this morning. Tom woke me up swearing in there (damn it, and I was going to finally get some sleep) because the burner just exploded and broke off a piece of the element. Now we have to get a new stove.  Great!  Another thing we can't afford.  I guess the front door will have to wait another year.  We can't afford both.  Hell, we can't afford either.

I've been trying to go to bed immediately after supper because sometimes knitting wakes me up.  Thing is, I don't get to stay asleep because my body treats it like a nap.  So I've been lying in bed in the dark watching tv until it gets late enough my body might be fooled into thinking we're down for the night. Until Tom comes home and Professor goes ape-shit barking at the car.  And lately he's been mistaking the neighbor's car for ours so when our neighbor comes home from work at around 11, he goes ape-shit for her, too.  So I think it's just going to be impossible to get a good night's sleep ever again.

I'm systematically working on the kitchen today, trying to clean it.  I'm not making good time because I'm so tired and achy today (change of weather, I think) but I should have most of it done before I go to bed tonight. If not, I'll finish up tomorrow.  I just can't push myself today.  Not and be able to sleep tonight.  The pain will catch up with me then.

So I guess I'd better get back to work and at least get the dishes done and the counters cleaned. I might not mop until tomorrow, especially as Tom will come in with wet feet tonight.

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Another record-breaking day

Again in the low 80s.  I caved in and put some screens in two windows and the front storm door.  That door will have to be replaced this summer as it's warped and won't stay shut. I'm always afraid Professor will jump on the door when the mail carrier comes by and it will pop open.  As he has an intense hatred for anyone in blue I'm afraid what he might do.

Last night no sleep again.  Partly because it was so hot and partly because Professor just won't sleep because of the heat.  He got me up several times, none of which to go out.  He just wanted me awake.  And I woke up to the phone ringing at 9.  It was the dr's office calling Zach about his labs, which have improved enough he doesn't have to take the rest of his industrial strength vitamin D but can go to over the counter stuff.  And  his thyroid was normal.  So, as long as I was awake I just stayed up and then went to the store a bit later. I hate shopping when I've got to keep an eye on the clock.

I plan on sleeping in tomorrow come hell or high water. I must get some sleep before I have another melt-down like I did last night.  And no, I don't want to talk about it but suffice to say that I never cry.  Except for last night.

I have laundry to do today. Just one load because I have no energy for more than that. I'm not hanging them out because it's supposed to rain tomorrow and I don't feel like waking up to find out it rained in the wee hours of the morning instead of later on.  Tomorrow will be spent with laundry and cleaning. It's gotten away from me again and I'm sure Tom is annoyed by it.

I think I'm going to try a short nap before I fix supper. I tried earlier but got sidetracked with the screens as my bedroom was a sauna so I needed the window by the bed opened.  I think I can sleep now.  Hope so anyway.  I also hope tomorrow is more normal. I'm really, really tired of this fatigue.

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Spring at its earliest feels a lot like summer

Seriously. It's over 80F today.  I still think winter has something left for us so while I'm enjoying the weather. I haven't put away the winter clothes yet.  And I still have plastic on some of the windows.  It snowed on Tom's birthday last year (April 15th) so I'm not ruling out more snow.

I went to bed early last night and fell right asleep only to wake up a short while before Tom got home at 1 a.m.  I was up until 4 after that.  But had to get up at 9 to take Zach to the dr for labs.  And early again tomorrow morning to run some errands.  Not having transportation is really getting to me. 

I have meds to pick up at the pharmacy tomorrow and really should hit the library but I can't get everything done in two hours, which is all I really have unless I want to get up really early and I don't. I could get it all done, but I would feel so rushed and panicked about not getting home in time for Tom to leave for work.

I'm doing laundry but I'm not hanging them out on the line like I should. I still have a headache and the fatigue is always present so I'm using the dryer. I can do a load a day this way instead of all of them at once. I'm not even sure I have energy to fix supper tonight.  I could have Zach fix something. 

I'm thinking of going on blog hiatus until I get this fatigue and depression under control.  All I do is whine here and who wants to read that?  If you don't hear from me for a few days, I'm just taking a break.  Nothing major.  Just some down time.

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